Wednesday, January 16, 2013

A Letter to My First Born


A thought occured to me today. And I wanted to share with you so you would understand if you could in some way.

When I found out I was pregnant with you, I was afraid that my parents would be angry with me. That they wouldn't support me or my marriage to James. I thought the world would treat me like I was just a child having a child. When I took that pregnancy test after I got sent home from work with flu like symptoms, I thought I would know the results but part of me didn't think it could really happen. When I found out, I was happy. I think that's normal, you are given this gift from God and I think that is part of the joy surrounds you.

So don't let the joy be diminished by the fear of what anyone will say. You have never cared what people think, don't start now. You are doing very well with being responsible and trying to start your adult life in a positive way. Keep it up Krissy. Be happy. You will always have someone in life that won't agree with your opinion, you will always have someone that will think you should do better or make better choices, all that matters really, is that you love God with all your heart and you pass that legacy on to your child. God has entrusted you with this life, to be your baby's teacher and teach that baby how to find him. How to have eternal life with it's mama. How to love others. It is a great responsibility and honor to enter this arena and God has told you that you will never walk it alone.

I also want to share with you about how you "think" I feel. I have always hoped to make my parents proud of me. I have always felt that I have disappointed them and continue to do so with the mistakes that I may be making. And I am continually amazed at how opposite of the truth this is indeed. My mother and father continue to be proud of me and the way I keep trying to live my life. So to you I wanted to share, that no matter what you do. I have always been and will always be proud to call you my daughter. When you were born, I was proud of you. I held you and I was so scared that I would break you. But I didn't. You made my life sooooo much better Krissy Morgan. You gave me something to live for...... you gave me a way to finding my relationship with God. My life is so much better with you and having you. I was proud at your 6th grade graduation, I was proud at all of your school concerts, I was proud of you getting your permit and license and I will be proud of you when you have your baby.

If all you do in life is be a mom, no matter what job you have, no matter what man you marry, no matter how rich or poor you are. No matter what I will LOVE you and I will always be proud to call you my first born daughter.

Now hold your head up. I have a ton of people offering help. We will all help you through this time. Let's try to have some fun now!

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